We're SO indecisive

So Chris and I went to Coonskin last month and put down a deposit on their wedding garden and a reception room. The original guest list has about 130 people and I had huge dreams about my Coonskin wedding.

But now, we have no idea what to do. It just seems like weddings are way too darn expensive. We thought about downsizing the wedding and having it in a different location. We cut the guestlist drastically from 130 to about 60. Coonskin is too big for 60 people, but Chris doesn't want a whole lot of people there. We looked at various places around the New River Gorge (breathtaking in the fall!) but everything up there is way out of our budget. We thought about eloping with our families, but my mom nixed that idea immediately.

The whole point of this post is because I've lost my wedding vision. Sure, I know it will take place in October 2011 and I know it will be outside somewhere. But what I don't know is where exactly, or how many people will come. It's aggravating. I have the biggest headache. Wedding planning is supposed to be fun, not so stressful so far out. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO! I can't cut the guest list anymore. I don't have a job to save money. I'm not going to not have a wedding at all. Gah. It's so annoying! Help!